Sorry…

Where do I begin? Who do I start with? Well, I guess I should just let the words flow and hopefully they will make sense. These thoughts, feelings and words came to me at 1:30 a.m. as I forced myself to quit playing catch-up. As stated in other blogs, time management can be a curse as it forces you to rush through life to ensure everything gets done.

This does nothing for my anxiety. Moving on, after getting a few things off of my Saturday to do list, I decided that after a month of not checking emails and blogs that it was time to play catch-up. Needless to say, over 1099 emails this would not be quick or easy. No matter, I would persevere and push myself to be caught up and try again to stay caught up.

I had good intentions, however, by midnight I was feeling drunk with fatigue. Standing up and walking I felt tipsy. Still, I pushed through and by 1 a.m. I was down to 130 emails and blogs. Fatigue consumed me and I had to concede, had to tap out.

The apologies necessary to bring some relief to the guilt I feel for not keeping up with all of your lives. Did I bite off more than I can chew by following so many and putting myself out there to be followed? Perhaps, but you are my community. My friends and inspirational muses. To be a writer, a person who needs to be connected to others and share my life with others, I need to be more there. More involved. Sharing my writing, days, ups and downs, achievements and failures with others is what I’m meant to be and do. 

So here I will try to remember all of you and double apologize ( not grammatically correct 😀) to those who’s names I forgot. Danny @dream big dream often, lady Joyful, caralyn@beauty beyond bones, jason@ opiniated man, bill @ healthy solutions, Ann@ Ann’s corner, cfservant, Bonnie, inspire the best you, pursuing your passion, Victoria Dillard, Sasha, one more shot please, Persia and Maximus, pirate patty, tenacity T, Jennifer N., Pique images, Lydia, and as I sit here trying to remember the many more my brain draws a blank. I know that there are more of you that I follow and that follow me and my apologies once again for not remembering right now. 

I will not promise to do better about keeping up with all of you as a promise is one’s word, their honor and I will not do that as life happens and I would not want to to even say I promise to try.

Know that I cherish each and everyone one of you. I appreciate that you are all in my life even if only through blogs.

Peace be with all of you!

I will try to do better and hope that you will understand that this is a process for me.

Love always,

Tiffany a.k.a Jenness